at work

sitting at my desk
she just went to bed
hey i have a girlfriend
and i love her
yep
life is getting a lot better
im in a band now too
last weekend we made a song
well
it was totally improvised
it sounded like venus in furs
it was our first jam with our new member
his name is sprout and he plays the violin
everything sounded perfect to me
and i just
couldnt stop myself from playing
there was just
so much energy
it was a lot of fun
when we record a final version ill put it up on here
we still need a singer
or one of us has sing
i think i might try
if stephen malkmus can be jesus then i can probably sing a song

ive been having weird panic attacks lately
i feel better now
i had a dream that i was laying on the sidewalk
and i couldnt move
and someone was pouring oxycontin into my chest
its hard sometimes

im okay
she makes me feel optimistic
i love her